i got no words to describe this feeling. the feeling of being so lost when u think that there is still hope and i need to get back on my feet. i have been doing the entire mp alone and i feel kinda down and almost out. lies deception coverups are now being more and more common..for some reasoon i just have to say this and for some reason i know you are gonna read this. i nvr once admitted i love you. nvr once did i wanted to send you back even. i cant help but feel mostly guilty. i lost one thing that i had which is my self respect over the months . my smoking has incresed drastically and i have been coughing out blood every so often. if i never had a chance to say this let me say it once. i love you . you meant so much to me back then but we rarely talked. when we did i kinda have this energy building ard me . that day when i was so deprived, u were sick and i couldnt even send you home. i am lost for words. pls give me this chance and for this final dance im willing to take, lets rock

HARRRLLLLOOOOOHHH..

Whats up blog servers?? time to spam you mother fuckers after a fucking long break..


no new things up so maybe later i'll post something up..

hahah



the wireless cotton, suck my balls master..

Well have been puling my hair out this pass few weeks and i think that it is unlkely that i will stop the tempo for at least another 2 weeks. short post as this is meant to be i will leave it with a little thought...

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When i walk in the club,
all eyes on me.
im with the party rock crew,
all drinks are free.
we like ciroc,
they love patron.
we came to party and rock,
everybody lets GO!!!!!!


shots!shots!shots!shots!shots!
shots!shots!shots!shots!shots!
shots!shots!shots!shots!shots!
shots!
EVERYBODY!!!

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first post of 2010. makes one think alot. especially if it started with a near death situation.

what if the side railing wasnt there? what if we missed the side railing completely? what if there was heavy traffic? what if we didnt miss the exit we were supposed to make? what if we had gone on a bus instead? what if this happened on the way over instead of the way back? what if i was the one at the wheel when it happened? how would i react? is this a sign?


anyways ignore those questions i just felt the need to write em out to clear my head..

here comes the best part, RESOLUTIONS FOR THE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!

1. get new glasses
2. get new phone
3. get new lappy
4. get at least 3.2 GPA
5. go road trip with friends.

next two comes together as an IF package..

1. get a GF
2. stop Smoking