just made an incredible accomplishment!!WOOHOOO..


over the events of the past 2 weeks of complete boredom and snooze-dom, i have managed to smoke less than 30 sticks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!oh yeah....reaching the target of one pack per month..by march next year,i hope to cut down to 1 stick per month..resonable aiye?

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holidays arent feeling like one. have been going back to sch these past few days and god is it boring. i can even SMOKE at the staircase beside the LIBRARY and NOT get caught.hahahaha. i wanna go out soon. i need to buy smokes, top up ez link, save up $200 for a new phone, save another $2000 for a decent laptop and much more. feel like taking up a job. but with school work plling up, ah god fuck it kiss my ass..hahahaaha..anyways, the life investment that my mum saved up for when we were kids have matured.total investment as of now is $56k++..0.0..anyways me and sis had a little chat and we decided not to take it out until we get married..that was the promise made today..haha..anyways gonna go play dota for now chao!!

Labels: maturity

when you dont think that you won it and you win,it's luck.
when you wish for things to happen,it's hope.
when you see things as the way they are, it's reality.
when you strike a million dollars on your last dollar, it is fate.
when you read this and ask yourself what the fuck is he talking about,it is randomness. hahahahahahah LOL

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going jeeva's pool party in a couple of minutes. love the fact that i have no money to even top up my ez link..hahaha..will update pic's if there are any.

one is the number to beat. so lets take a stick and whack it till it comes out right. but remember that it is only 10% so dont bother going all out. i have a 50/50 chance of repeating 60% of all the modules. dont give a fuck so wilson up yours.


ever wondered why when you met someone for the first time, it feels as if you have known her like for a long time?

random post just to keep my mind moving..

Labels: i just havent met you yet =D

Download Link

The following link is a recording of a friend of mine. recorded a while back. song title is "Kasihku". anyways promoting the song abit and if he sees this he will probably kill me. haha

ps song is in malay.

Labels: Abdul muhaimin, farhan S, hans, huzai, huzairi, min

went to study with karl, jeeva and siva just now and i managed to get some knowledge in. woohoo. not bad ah. anyways, slacked first from abt 230 till abt 4 but then really went to study at library with elesia they all. so there were 4 of us there, me , jeeva ,siva and elesia , while karl,nelson,nadine,amirah and jing chee was at another floor. actually studied for 10% of the tme there but it was quite productive arh. learnt abt interupt, timer, etc. the rest of the time was gossip.lol

still alot of tension at home. but calm down abit by 0.0000000001% ah. mom only talks if she really needs something from me,dad still doesnt bother to talk to me while the only person talking to me is my second sis. even then there is still alot of awkwardness lah. my eldest sis still not talking with me for an exceptional long time well because she seriously busted me big time a while back even before this whole 'incident'and i still have not forgiven her abt it ah. complicated family. then again although i admit im at fault for this whole 'incident', the way my parents reacted was abit to childish and if they cant realise that then i have nothing much to say. i rather have this settled now rather then have it made public but if it does, they would look foolish and thus that is why they have not done so. they know that i will get a bad image from it but it will impact them bigger than on me because of the way they react. seriosly hope something is done soon or else, im really packing my bags and going off. and i admit it for real.

Gah!!!!

my last stick of cigarette broke....

hahahahahahaha..lol....

have been mentally unstable this past few days..prolly bcoz of term test..going to school soon but dont feel like studying..wakakakakaka.. anyways anyone got physical labour part time job? seriously need it. got things i need to buy..ya know..

if made a promise with a chinese guy to meet up, he will be there abt at most 30 mins late,with a few extraodinary cases, 3hours..

if you made a promise with an indian guy to meet up, he will keep telling you that he is reaching soon but will only arrive 30mins to 4hrs later..

if you made a promise with an angmoh to meet up he will definately be on time(or at least earlier) at the right place waiting for you.

if you made a promise with a malay guy, be prepared to wait because he will only get out of his house at the supposed time of meeting...

if you made a promise to meet up with me, well chances are you have to wait..i'll only get out at the time of meeting, tell you that im on the way, claim to be at the right spot at the very momment you are there and say that i went out for a smoke break while waiting for yu thus you are the one late..ahahahahahahaha...olololol..

on a lighter note to pass few days..mugging for term test..gonna flung ecapp,eweb..already flung marketing..only hope of passing is DMSD..lol..hahaha

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quite an old photo..exactly what i want to do right now at this momment..

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situation at home has calmed down abit.. thank god but im stilled pissed off..i tried smoking to calm my nerves down but it made the situation worse..haha..revenge is sweet..man im twisted in ways only a psychopath can match.. ok better start smoking again this time to really calm my nerves and study not to piss others off..lol..

Labels: smoked away

your threat is nothing to me. it doesnt mean a single thing. make this fucking public bcoz i promise that i will not hold anything back.you made a threat,while i made a promise.

Labels: fuck you

people have egos, that is give and take. some have more, others have a bit too much. until the day that you can put that aside dont bother talking to me dad.

and to my beloved mom. you say im rude?go take a look at how you talk to your parents and until you realise that i got it from you then go fuck yourself.

thanks for listening.

what's the point of a driving license if you dont drive?
what's the point of a house if you dont stay there?
what's the point of loving someone if you dont tell that you love them?
what's the point of eating if you are not hungry?
what's the point of smoking if you know that it kills you?
what's the point of studying something that you lost interest in the momment you started?
what's the point of sleeping if you are not tired?
what's the point of hoping if you dont believe in hope?
what's the point of life if you only do so to die?
different people has diffferent answers to these questions.
time just makes you forget of what happens.
the universe makes you look pathetic
while the appreciation of others make you feel cool
i seriously doubt that there are exactly the same person somewhere else who thinks the way i think.
great minds can think alike, but never has they thought the same exact perspective.


ok..my ciggeretes is on its bud thus no more thinking..lol..next time
ps. blogger is fucking up my pic uploads..gah!!!

Labels: look there goes the point

just took cds term test and i can confirm to all that im gonna at least get 2 marks out of 50.lol..







anyways, was smoking under the void deck just now when i thought of stoping for real.. just as i finished the thought of stopping dissapeared..lots of resentment everytime i light a ciggerette but once im done its gone.. hmmm..



looking for a sponser who will be there to see me kick this habit and that someone chances are wont be finding this..over the past few years i got multiple blogs and i see a patern when ever i start blogging..it's always about me regretting somethings in life and when i start it is always about something new..well you would never know would ya? step!!!

one final time..lets rock...