i got no words to describe this feeling. the feeling of being so lost when u think that there is still hope and i need to get back on my feet. i have been doing the entire mp alone and i feel kinda down and almost out. lies deception coverups are now being more and more common..for some reasoon i just have to say this and for some reason i know you are gonna read this. i nvr once admitted i love you. nvr once did i wanted to send you back even. i cant help but feel mostly guilty. i lost one thing that i had which is my self respect over the months . my smoking has incresed drastically and i have been coughing out blood every so often. if i never had a chance to say this let me say it once. i love you . you meant so much to me back then but we rarely talked. when we did i kinda have this energy building ard me . that day when i was so deprived, u were sick and i couldnt even send you home. i am lost for words. pls give me this chance and for this final dance im willing to take, lets rock